* JULY 18, 1968 - MOTHER CALLED, TOLD ME TO COME HOME & NOT TO LISTEN TO THE SPECIALIST. DIDN’T REPLY, SHE HUNG UP. VERY DEPRESSED. VERY STONED. THINGS ARE GETTING BAD AGAIN.
#PULITZERLOST
INDEPENDENT AND SELECTIVE ORIGINAL CHARACTER. WRITTEN BY EMMA.
——– AS IF HE is the one who is being rude . best selling novel of when now ? Her fancy book is thirteen years older than he is .
“ stuart pot . ”
he ’ s not sure what she ’ s looking for exactly – his shoe size ? country of origin ? social insurance number ?
“ could ask the same ov ’ yourself . ”
‘ you really must be empty up there. ’ there’s a certain irony in her words, her tone. she’s the empty one, wandering this house for decades, wishing things had gone differently, waiting for change. and now, here it is : stuart pot, a man she’s never heard of, saying things she’s disinclined to believe, refusing to believe.
——– THAT SENTIMENT has his rear end up . as if the property value of this dusty old shed would go down as a result of the likes of a sensational musician making it his home .
“ the likes of me ? ”
his tone is somewhat incredulous , though he ’ s
not quite bold enough to become confrontational – even to a ghost .
“ i co - wrote one of the best - selling albums of 2005 ! as if the value’s going to go down . ”
‘ don’t be so rude. i wrote the bestselling novel of 1965, and look where that got me. ’ she offers him another glance, the familiar measured expression remaining on her face. 2005, that still felt decades away. ‘ besides, i certainly can’t imagine it going up. ’
she takes a careful step forward, as if testing the waters, annoyance now tinted with a small amount of curiosity, a somewhat sinking feeling in her chest. ‘ who are you? ’
——– STUART IS STILL , as if frozen , unsure of
what to make of what he is seeing . a ghost - some
phantom , the previous occupant of the house ? he ’ s been
told some sensationalized story by the realtor about a tragic
suicide or something of the sort , but this is surreal .
he cannot say it is unbelievable , though . perhaps
more plausible to him than it might be to others , he finds
himself compelled to oblige , setting the unlit
cigarette down on the wrinkled sheet . he is not a tidy man ,
and he pays no house staff .
“ a - all due respect , i live here now . ”
‘ all due respect. ’ she mimics his accent, adding a slight whine, tone acquiring a pitched, irritating cadence. vague, transparent eyes scan the man before her, narrowing upon the sight of his worn jeans, tired eyes. if it was possible, her face would have grown a shade paler.
‘ oh god, with the likes of you moving in - don’t tell me, has the property value gone down? ’
——– IT’S BEEN a long day , and he ’ s
perched on the edge of an unmade bed , unlit cigarette
between crooked teeth , cold shaky hand negotiating with an
empty lighter . Sunken eyes examine the rips in his jeans ,
becoming a bit too threadbare , perhaps — a trip to the
shops ?
Blue hair , bleached and glowing like an electric
halo as the evening ’ s last red sun pours in through the
window , adorned only by gauzy curtains . The house had come
furnished , dusty .
He his the roof when a voice fills the room , a
woman ’ s apparition in the doorway . Ghostly and
semi - translucent , he ’ s been warned by his doctor about chronic drug abuse leading to hallucination .
“ Who ’ s there ? ”
‘ me. ’ her tone is incredulous, displeased. in life, it had always been an irritation to meet somebody who was unaware of the audiences she commanded, and death is no different. she takes a small, wavering step forward, her frame mirage-like in the late, red-tinted light.
‘ me, as in, this is my house. ’ or was her house, at one point in time. everything prior to this moment of lucidity is one long, hazy headache. ‘ this is my house, and my room, and i’m telling you not to light that cigarette. ’
‘ don’t you dare light that cigarette, those bedsheets are silk. ’ she’s standing in a shaft of light, a faintly hypocritical trail of smoke perched between her fingers, pale flecks of ash drifting towards her feet. ‘ mine isn’t real, it doesn’t count. ’ @comadoser.